I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

Alright ladies and Gents. It's been awhile since I have posted and ALOT has happened. Me and Jason Wright are no more which wasn't what we could of predicted but everything happens for a reason and people fall apart so better things can fall together. I am a full believer in that....even more so since I found my better half...but we will talk more about that later haha. I have learned that the only people you can depend on are your family and yourself. (family includes you Stella before you get offended haha) I have the most amazing family and I don't know what I would do without them. This picture above was last year up in Canada with my amazing family and Grandparents on my dad's side. I am going up there again August 5-15th an I cannot even wait. Things are really looking up for me and I am truly happy and if you know me and have kept good contact with me you will know this is true. I have a lot in store for me and I am very excited about it. I have amazing people in my life that I wouldn't trade for anything. For once things are looking promising.

Alright and here we go. I'm too excited not to tell you. Hopefully this time I don't jinx myself cuz it was rather embarrassing the last time I announced a relationship haha. Everyone this is Jay and he's simply INCREDIBLE. Not only has this kid swept me off my feet but he's becoming my best friend. I won't talk too much about him until later so that way i don't, like i said, jinx myself. haha But, I like him and I hope to keep him if possible lol. Time will tell.

Not the best week

So this week has surely been a rough one for me. A lot going on at the moment and it's taking it's toll. I've never had so many emotions at one time. I kinda feel lost in my life at the moment. Unsure what I'm supposed to do and what path I'm supposed to be taking. It's kind of a helpless feeling. Got some news about the boyfriend that is very difficult to take in. Everything just seems to be going in the wrong direction and it's only getting harder. I don't know how much more I can take to be honest. I'm extremely confused right now and I have a lot to think about. I just found out not long ago my Grandpa has only a year or two left because his cancer has progressed so rapidly, than the whole Jason thing, and all the other stresses on top of it with the business and second job. It's been one hell of a week. I'm honestly at a state where I literally don't know what to do. I hate that feeling most of all. Looks like I have a lot of thinking to do and decisions to make..Wish me luck.

One month!!

It will be one month exactly on Tuesday that I said goodbye to my boy. I can't tell you how much I miss him. My feelings grow for him each day. I have learned to appreciate each individual email, phone call, and text. You never really know how much you take for granted until it's not at your leisure. I am a very independent girl and it has helped me a lot through all of this but I have also found new strength that I never knew I had. With each passing day I think about him. I don't think I have ever felt like this before. It's a nice change. After all this is over with there won't be anything we can't get through. A lot of people might think that it was bad timing meeting him right in the middle of all these deployments but I don't think the time could of been more perfect. This time apart makes us appreciate each other that much more. I'm beginning to believe we were made for each other. I know what he's going through right now isn't easy for either of us but things will be that much better when he's home for good. He's fighting for our freedom...my freedom and I don't think there's another job that is as important as his. I appreciate what he does for us and what he does for me. I love the boy...more than I thought I could in such a short amount of time. I can't wait to have him home with me. I just have to keep telling myself "one day less". It makes it a little easier that way. Although I may not see him right now he is my first and last thought in my days. I wouldn't trade him or our relationship for anything....even on the bad days.

Someday, someone will walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else.

It's been almost 3 weeks since my boy left on deployment. All I can say is Dang, I miss that boy. It hasn't been easy so far but nothing in life that's worth it is going to be easy. Everyday my feelings grow for this kid and no matter how hard I try to stop it I can't lol. Everyone who actually knows me knows how sketchy I am when it comes to boys and the big "L-O-V-E". But Idk this boy has my heart. I've never had a guy treat me so well in my entire life....well except my daddy lol He's pretty amazing. I am counting down the days until he's home. People don't understand how hard it is being away from the person you love. I have a new found respect for military mothers, wives, and girlfriends cuz this effn sucks! lol It's surely a challenge. You don't realize how much you take for granted until they are gone...Like being able to call or text them anytime you want or to simply reach out and touch them. Every email every phone call is a blessing. These next few years are going to be tough for both of us but I believe in us enough to believe we can make it and we WILL make it. I intend on keeping this boy because he's the greatest catch a girl could ask for. Pretty sure I love him:) I appreciate him and everything he does for me. I can't wait to see him again.

So there's this boy

Alright everyone I'd like to introduce you to "the boyfriend". Yes that's right I found my perfectly imperfect tattooed dream boy;) His name is Jason Wright. I believe the first day i laid eyes on him I was 13 or 14 years old lol. We both went to Lakeridge Junior High School together about 7-8 years ago. Craziness I know lol. Tell me about it I'm getting old, but that's besides the point. The point is I found a true gentleman and I couldn't ask for anything more :) He is currently serving in the Navy and was deployed to Africa on Tuesday. Yes I am still very butt hurt about it but I will survive. Besides, waiting for someone like him should be easy because of the way he treats me. Sorry not trying to get all mushy here lol Simply put he's awesome and I really enjoy calling him mine. I see a bright future for us....after all he is "Mr. Wright" ;) (get it?) hahaha

Thank you come again!!

Alright everyone I am so excited to say that Becca's Pet Salon is officially OPEN and I cannot even wait to begin this journey!!! I am so grateful for what I have and all the support I have gotten from my family in achieving this dream of mine. I am so grateful for my parents for making all this possible for me. They never lost hope in me and they always had faith and believed in me...even when I didn't believe in myself. I am so lucky to be blessed with such an AMAZING family. Things are finally coming together for me and I have never been so humbled. I never believed in my wildest dreams I would ever make it to where I am now. I struggled a lot in middle school and high school and I lost faith in myself...but I have pushed through everything that has been thrown my way and I MADE IT. I can't even wait to see what doors open for me on this path I have chosen. Thanks everyone for the love and support. You are all amazing.

Triple threat

I'm pretty sure if any of you guys know me than you know this was my crew in high school. Beth, Stella and I were as close as they come. I don't know where I would of been without these hooligans lol. We did everything together and we always took care of one each other like real friends are supposed to lol. The best part is even now these girls are still apart of my life and we are still great friends. Stella and I are still as close as ever and I think it will always be like that no matter what happens or where life takes us. She is now married to an amazing man,John Taylor , and is moving for the summer to Texas. I am going to miss this girl like crazy. We are like peas in a pod and I don't think I'd be where I am without her. She has been nothing but an inspiration to me. All us girls used to raise hell together at that school but we have slowly but surely found our ways in life. Beth is now married to Mike Sovine and has not one but two Beautiful children!!! She is an amazing girl and hilarious might I add. We were crazy little girls together but we at least had fun in the process haha. I can't even believe where life has taken all of us but I know that there are more adventures heading our way with out a doubt. We will always be the best of friends because when you find friends like this you find friends for life. I love you girls and I don't know where I'd be in life if it weren't for you two.

People let me tell you about my BEST FRIEND!!

Mrs. Rachel Sevison Cueves!!! Formally known as Rachel Sevison. This girl is easily the best friend a girl could ask for. I don't even know what I would do without her. For the past few month she has been living in California with her hubby A.J. and I can't even tell you how hard it is not to have her around. She has been with me through thick and thin and shown me what true friendship is. I love this girl with all my heart. We we're little hellions back in our day together but we learned and have grown together and we're still close as ever. This is what real friendship is guys. If you ever find a friend like this hold on to em. I am counting down the days until she gets home. As everyone knows I am currently opening up my own grooming shop. Rachel will be my very first employee when she gets home!!! She's an amazing groomer. We used to work together back in the day this is how we initially became friends...but we have known each other since middle school. Also, can I point out she used to HATE my guts back in the day haha. My how things have changed. :) Love you Rachel :)

My guilty pleasure

So I will admit I am hooked on diet soda and it will probably be the death of me...but at least when i die I will die happy right?? Idk what it is about it but it makes my mouth water even thinking about it. I know it is totally unhealthy for you but what the hell right?? haha We're all gonna die of something or another why not have it be diet soda? Think about it....would you rather die from cancer where it's slow and painful or would you rather die from over exposure to tastiness?? You tell me lol Anyway, you are all probably wondering why diet?? Why not go for the whole enchilada??? Well my friends, my family has been in an on/off relationship with the diet system called "weight watchers". It is a point system which allows you to learn to portion your meals and to choose healthier choices. Well, you can choose the poor choices but it will use up all your points and you will be starving lol. I wouldn't recommend it lol Anyway, back to the subject...A regular can of soda would be 4 whole points....when a can of diet soda is 0. You probably are thinking, "so??". Well depending on you're weight you are given a certain amount of points you can eat a day...the average my family members got is 18. So would you rather waste 4 of those points on a regular soda, or would you rather save it for actual food?? You be the judge :)

A little bit stronger

It will be 2 years in august since I walked away from something dear to me. It doesn't seem like it has been that long at all. I can still feel the sting when i think about it but it's gotten a lot easier with time. It takes a toll on you when you lose the person who was your everything, and the person you thought you'd spend your life with. Sometimes i still cringe when i think about it. But than i remember...everything happens for a reason, good things fall apart so better things can fall together. I know right now it's hard to see it because it has been so long and I have yet to find someone who makes me feel anything like what i felt for him. But it will come and he will find me and we will be perfect. I hold close to the memories of the ones i love but i don't let those memories control me anymore. I am hopeful I will find "the one". Over the past few years I've grown so much and I've learned even more. I've become independent and ambitious. I've taken this time alone and used it to better myself. When one door closes another one always opens and I am a firm believer in that. There is nothing in this life that i can't overcome. I have become somewhat picky when it comes to men...so therefore I'm now picking from a smaller pool lol. I may not know exactly what i want but I do know what I DON'T want and that will get me a lot further than where I started out.

Becca's Pet Salon

Alright everyone this is it. I'm almost completely set up to open my new shop in Orem. Just waiting on finishing touches and I will officially be open. I can't even wait. I am so excited this has been a dream for me since the day i started grooming and it'd finally coming true. It has been a hard and long road but soon it will pay off...this is my first step to success and I can't even explain the happiness I feel. I am so thankful for what I have. Throughout this whole journey I have learned so much and come to respect business owners and the hard work they put into their careers/dreams. It is not an easy task and there is so much work put into opening up a business. I'm just glad I'm almost over and my doors will be opening soon so I can get back to what i love. I have been grooming for about 4 years now and I have loved every moment of it...yes even when the dog is trying to eat my face I still enjoy it lol. I can't wait to do what I love for the living. They say that when you love your job it is no longer a job but a hobby that makes you money. I can live with that lol. So if anyone needs a dog/cat groomed let me know. I would love to help you out.

My unhealthy addiction to tattooed men

Alright there's no hiding it. I am addicted and I just can't seem to stop. To quit now would seem to be giving up and I am NOT A QUITTER lol. You see there's this habit I have...my drug if you will. It's tattoos...I can't get enough of them and I can't seem to get enough of guys WITH them lol. It's an unhealthy relationship I know but I can't give it up. I've tried but it's become a part of me. Idk what it is about the human coloring book but it really gets me hot;) It has been the same way since the beginning of time. ALTHOUGH recently I have been going down a very different path this addiction is becoming more and more hard to get a hold of. So if there are ANY ACTIVE TATTOOED LDS MEN out there please...please...PLEASE head my way because I have been waiting for you all my life lol. Since I've chosen this path I've had to give up the "Bad Boy" so I will now be settling for the "Bad Boy" look without the bad boy intentions. Thank you. I will be taking applications all month:)

A bit about the blogger

So a bit about me. Well the name is Rebecca Lynn Smith. I was born in Layton, Utah but raised in Orem. I'm 21 years young and so far it has been a interesting ride.
I absolutely love the color green.
My Favorite food would have to be Italian.
I have 2 older sisters 1 older brother and 1 younger brother, so therefore i have a big family...Well average family here in good ole Utah County lol. My family is everything to me. I'd actually rather hang out with them than most of my friends. lol
I was kind of a what you would call a "Wild Child" back in the day but over the past few years I've been picking up the pieces and taking a different path. I was baptized in the LDS church but became inactive around the age of 11-12. Just this past year have i even given thought to it again. I have been to church a few times and I have cut back on some habits of which i am not particularly proud of, but this is going to be a long journey for me. Besides, I have lived a completely different lifestyle the past 8 years or so...so can you really blame me?? It's a process and I will take it as fast or as slow as I want.
I can be a stubborn biotch at times but that comes with the package lol.
I have a completely irrational fear of sharks and I refuse to go into the ocean because of it. No i have not ever seen a shark, and no i will never want to. lol
I have a fiery personality and I can be a pain in the butt at times. If i don't like something or someone I am not afraid to show it. I will not back down from what i believe to be right. I am blunt and straight forward and i find it to be a blessing and a curse at times lol. I'm self conscious just like the next girl, and I'm constantly changing. I have zero tolerance for drama and ignorance. I will be the first one to tell you what an a**hole you're being. I'm very protective of the ones i love. I breakdown just as much as the next girl...My breakdowns just aren't as obvious. I HATE feeling vulnerable and I HATE crying in front of people. So if you know me you know I don't cry in front of people unless something absolutely traumatic has happened and I didn't have time to walk away lol. I have a hard time expressing emotions that create vulnerability.
I have been through ALOT in my life. I figure the day i find a guy I feel i can open up to and feel completely safe with will be the guy I will spend eternity with.
I have two best friends; Stella Taylor, and Rachel Sevison.
I absolutely love music. I have it playing 24/7 no matter what I'm doing. I consider myself more a rocker than anything else.
I am 5'1 which people would call "short" but I call "funsize" and I love it. I wouldn't ever wish to be tall. It doesn't fit my personality lol.
I am an animal lover.
I am a movie junkie.
I have an unhealthy relationship with soda. It will someday be the death of me.
And last but not least I'm a "softy". Bet you didn't see that coming lol. I'm compassionate and loyal and will always protect the weaker person. I'm not one to judge because, hey, I'm not perfect nor will I ever be. I'm very accepting of everyone and I love doing things that make other people happy. (not to be confused with a people pleaser) I'm a sucker for people/animals in need. If i could i would adopt every abandoned/abused animal i could lol. I'm a loyal friend and lover and would never purposely hurt the ones i love.
Well...That's a little insight on the blogger! Hope you enjoyed!!